My · Life

a perfect day would consist of this.....
a sunny sky in the morning
a cup of coffe by my bed

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lunch with all my friends
afternoon clouds

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clear night skies
and a blanket with my baby...

never forget that you can have dreams and hopes because with hope you can make any reality bettter

after taking esctacy I have new light in the way I see things. My family, i love them. unfortunalty at the last minute i got close to my siter..but now shes in holland starting school..i promise to keep in touch with her. And my mother who for years i didnt like..well i love her too. Shes a beautiful woman. She has been thorugh so much shit its crazy..i have had to tell myself that the reason my mom doesnt let me do what i want sometimes..is just because shes scared and she lves me..she wants to protect me..like any other parent would..and that has to be hard from her point of view if i was such a bitch in the first place. We may fight and my mom may be irrational, but i feel like althoguh parents are adults...and even if they have had other children before you..they can always learn more..and want to. My friends andI have been thrugh a lot of shitty deals. and its hard to see myself going through things like that again...thats why we have family..regardless if you broke up with your bf or your freinds hate you..you will always hav family..and im so fortunate to have mine...im not saying freinds suck, because a lot of times you can find someone who is family to you..i have a few of those..and im so lucky. Life is too short to hate people or get bothered by things that are silly..man...drugs are eye opening..in my opinion

my bday was yesterday..and I had a really good time. ate some delicious lunch then went to dinner at the habachi grill.
neatttt.
got a web cam and mic.
pretty excited.
today....
went to school hung out with chelsie. went to gangsta squad shit.
then hung out with melissa, beth and jessica. It was good : ) like old times kinda.

going to get on some wow. the to sleep

last night I got to see chris..but around 8 my my called me and wanted mehome cause i had been at chris's for " too long" i had onl been there since 6.....we went bck to my house and I knew my mom was mad baout something around 10 chris left and I went to talkt o my mom. she didnt want to talk untill the next day cause she was too mad..but i pushed it and she told me why she was soo mad..she said she wantes me to keep my room clean..and wen i mean clean she means like clean andneat everywhere. because walking into my room youd thnk its pretty picked up..but not my mom.she wants met o clean out the drawrs and dust and everything..and she wants it to always be thins way. she also wants help around the house....and i kmow i could do more..byut i never make messes anymore and arthur NEVER EVER DOES ANYTHINGGGGGGGGGGG..and she was just telling me..ill be happy to help her but it pisses me off sooo much that she doesnt say anything to arthur......and shes taking my privalages away cause she doesnt trust me...ugh i need ot get it back

Back form LA..it was nice. Im tired though.
and i miss people who i havnt hung out with inforever. andddd I have so much hw to do its insane
I hope that soon i can stop being a procrastinator
because im tired of being a child. but old habits die hard

on my way to LA very shortly. Bekah will be coming along. her and her mom havnt been getting along so i invited her to come so she could be away for a while.
yesterday i did not go out..but...chris came over and we watched sexand the city..thats our thing..we watch it wen we have nothing else to do. liek on weekdays its nice because i love the show and surprisingly he does too!!!
im on amoxicliin for my anti biotics for my mouth..and just last night i read that it decreses the effectiveness of BC!!!! good thing i havnt fooled around this week ont he half im on my period....i re read up on it and it says to use another method of bc for a week after my antibiotics are up..goood job for interenet search..it has everythingg..we are the people of the future..if you really think about it..its true..we are next inline for going to college, then hopefully getting carreer. getting married or whatever people do when ther " all grown up"....Im next and Im not sure if im ready..do you think we will do better than our parents???


anyway im out be back soon

I am going to try and make it a habit of writing in my journal.....because i like remembering my feelings and thoughts...even looking back at the beginging of this..I like it..im much more computer savvy then i am with a pen and paper. today is friday thankgod! and welllll im going to school very shortly. and after that chris and I willbe going to eat some OLIVE GARDEN!!!! soup and salad special with a dr. pepeer please..... I hopoe i can go out tonight, my sister is leaving for mexico tommorow and wont be back for months..then after that she willbe back form aybe a week and shell be off to Holland..Ill miss her.....

since ive updated this thing! heh.......i love chris..teeth puled on vicodin..and i love it
today was a okay day..did lots of kid sitting
and eating
got some New makeup
now at home
CHilaxing